Self-Pity

You make me feel self-pity
You make my heart feel broken
even if you don't really mean to do it
I'm being torn up inside

I lay there in my surroundings
and at first I'm just angry
thrashing around, throwing my prized possessions everywhere
and then I go limp, letting myself melt

melt away into nothingness
melt away from the inside out
I feel like a black hole
consuming things around me (yet not getting anything at all)

you make me feel dead inside
stupid and lifeless
I begin to get bruises
from where I've thrashed my arms and legs

I don't feel it though
the pain goes numb
I've been hurt
and things seem hopeless

is everything going to get better?
I doubt it
are you really ever going to love me again?
I doubt it

I really am nothing, aren't I?

I begin to wonder then
am I a burden to you like I am to others?
maybe I really do hurt everyone around me...
I never wanted to hurt you

I never wanted to be hurt by you either
so why don't you just forget me?
leave me lying here wallowing in my own self-pity
let me bleed here until I die

no one is going to remember who I was
I wasn't good enough for that
so here I sit
and here I will always sit
alone and untouched by the world of love